i feel so alone i don’t want to be me anymore

letlive.- Banshee (Ghost Fame)

(Source: 14inches, via diekn0wing)

Timestamp: 1399490564


snap: zarbinho | instagram

(via matthew-welsh)

Timestamp: 1399475384

i am really bored

  • 1:Full name  Lucy Stevens
  • 2:Age  17
  • 3:3 Fears  spiders, being alone, failure
  • 4:3 things I love  my boyfriend, my pets, ancient history
  • 5:4 turns on  i’m not sure
  • 6:4 turns off  i’m not sure
  • 7:My best friend  Kieran (anobrxin.tumblr.com)
  • 8:Sexual orientation  straight
  • 9:My best first date  meeting Kieran in York
  • 10:How tall am I  5 foot 1 inch
  • 11:What do I miss  having a stable group of friends
  • 12:What time were I born  7:04am
  • 13:Favourite color  navy blue or bottle green
  • 14:Do I have a crush  i do
  • 15:Favourite quote  some part of Lysistrata by Aristophanes but I can’t decide which
  • 16:Favourite place  Edinburgh 
  • 17:Favourite food  that’s too much to ask of me
  • 18:Do I use sarcasm  i do indeed
  • 19:What am I listening to right now  the sound of my own brain cells dying
  • 20:First thing I notice in new person  their intelligence 
  • 21:Shoe size  i’m a 6.5/7
  • 22:Eye color  brown
  • 23:Hair color  brown, but green at the minute
  • 24:Favourite style of clothing  dark colours ft legs out
  • 25:Ever done a prank call?  probably yeah
  • 27:Meaning behind my URL  your demise song
  • 28:Favourite movie  American Pie 1/2/Reunion
  • 29:Favourite song  i can’t share that with you (it’s too hard to pick)
  • 30:Favourite band  bury tomorrow or the ghost inside or the smiths
  • 31:How I feel right now  tired hungry tired stressed tired hungry and maybe tired
  • 32:Someone I love  kie
  • 33:My current relationship status  taken
  • 34:My relationship with my parents  i’d say i’m pretty close to my parents 
  • 35:Favourite holiday  new york 2012 but new york 2014 with kieran will be even better
  • 36:Tattoos and piercing i have  no tattoos but 9 piercings: 6 on ears 2 on nose and tongue web
  • 37:Tattoos and piercing i want  getting my cleavage redone, medusa and nape // i’m not sure on tattoos yet
  • 38:The reason I joined Tumblr  boredom
  • 39:Do I and my last ex hate each other?  nope i wouldn’t say so
  • 40:Do I ever get “good morning” or “good night ” texts?  yeah every day/nig
  • 41:Have I ever kissed the last person you texted? yes
  • 42:When did I last hold hands? monday
  • 43:How long does it take me to get ready in the morning?  one hour and twenty minutes
  • 44:Have You shaved your legs in the past three days?  i haven’t
  • 45:Where am I right now?  sitting on the sofa
  • 46:If I were drunk & can’t stand, who’s taking care of me?  kieran most likely
  • 47:Do I like my music loud or at a reasonable level?  depends on the situation
  • 48:Do I live with my Mum and Dad?  just my mum
  • 49:Am I excited for anything?  leeds with kieran, finishing college, london with kieran, starting work again, new york with kieran 
  • 50:Do I have someone of the opposite sex I can tell everything to?  yes i do
  • 51:How often do I wear a fake smile?  daily
  • 52:When was the last time I hugged someone?  monday
  • 53:What if the last person I kissed was kissing someone else right in front of me?  i’d cry and be institutionalised 
  • 54:Is there anyone I trust even though I should not?  yes actually
  • 55:What is something I disliked about today?  nah today’s been pretty decent except i’m home alone and can’t reach the tea bags
  • 56:If I could meet anyone on this earth, who would it be?  sir paul mccartney 
  • 57:What do I think about most?  my future
  • 58:What’s my strangest talent?  i can play guitar hero/rock band on expert whilst holding the microphone between my boobs
  • 59:Do I have any strange phobias?  birds, grass, bare feet on carpet
  • 60:Do I prefer to be behind the camera or in front of it? behind
  • 61:What was the last lie I told?  "yeah i’ve walked the dog"
  • 62:Do I perfer talking on the phone or video chatting online? talking on the phone
  • 63:Do I believe in ghosts? How about aliens?  i don’t believe in ghosts as such but i believe in some form of paranormal
  • 64:Do I believe in magic? nope
  • 65:Do I believe in luck?  yes i do
  • 66:What’s the weather like right now?  cloudy as fuck but that’s the ‘through window’ judgement i haven’t left the room today
  • 67:What was the last book I’ve read?  a clockwork orange
  • 68:Do I like the smell of gasoline?  yes yes yes
  • 69:Do I have any nicknames?  luce i guess, rather than lucy
  • 70:What was the worst injury I’ve ever had?  i’m pretty lucky with injuries except one time my cat chipped the bone in my finger and it swelled up to twice it’s size and i had to drive an hour and a half to a hospital
  • 71:Do I spend money or save it? spend spend spend
  • 72:Can I touch my nose with a tounge? nope cos of my tongue bar
  • 73:Is there anything pink in 10 feets from me? nope except everything in this room is purple 
  • 74:Favourite animal? giraffes n cats
  • 75:What was I doing last night at 12 AM?  sleepin like a baby
  • 76:What do I think is Satan’s last name is? young/jobes
  • 77:What’s a song that always makes me happy when I hear it? so macho by sunnita 
  • 78:How can you win my heart? buy me dominos and play lego star wars with me
  • 79:What would I want to be written on my tombstone? 'i'm dead now, get over it'
  • 80:What is my favorite word? colloquialism or thucydides 
  • 81:My top 5 blogs on tumblr  nah go away
  • 82:If the whole world were listening to me right now, what would I say? i have to pee can i go now
  • 83:Do I have any relatives in jail? unfortunately 
  • 84:I accidentally eat some radioactive vegetables. They were good, and what’s even cooler is that they endow me with the super-power of my choice! What is that power? invisibility 
  • 85:What would be a question I’d be afraid to tell the truth on? do you like ________? [not saying their name they have tumblr]
  • 86:What is my current desktop picture? picture of some fireworks i took last year
  • 87:Had sex?  yes
  • 88:Bought condoms? no
  • 89:Gotten pregnant? no
  • 90:Failed a class? no
  • 91:Kissed a boy? yes
  • 92:Kissed a girl? yes
  • 93:Have I ever kissed somebody in the rain? yes
  • 94:Had job? yes
  • 95:Left the house without my wallet? yes
  • 96:Bullied someone on the internet? probably i hate people
  • 97:Had sex in public? nope
  • 98:Played on a sports team? yes
  • 99:Smoked weed? no
  • 100:Did drugs? no
  • 101:Smoked cigarettes? no
  • 102:Drank alcohol? yes
  • 103:Am I a vegetarian/vegan? i am and have been for 9 years
  • 104:Been overweight? never
  • 105:Been underweight? i am
  • 106:Been to a wedding? yes
  • 107:Been on the computer for 5 hours straight? yes
  • 108:Watched TV for 5 hours straight? yes
  • 109:Been outside my home country? yes
  • 110:Gotten my heart broken? i’d say yes but then kieran’s made me realise otherwise, that all past feelings weren’t even real
  • 111:Been to a professional sports game? ew no
  • 112:Broken a bone? nope only chipped
  • 113:Cut myself? not for a long time
  • 114:Been to prom? nah i don’t do that type of thing
  • 115:Been in airplane? yes
  • 116:Fly by helicopter? yes
  • 117:What concerts have I been to? it’d take too long to list but i’ve seen like 100 bands live
  • 118:Had a crush on someone of the same sex? no
  • 119:Learned another language? yes german french and i’m learning latin when i finish for summer
  • 120:Wore make up? yes
  • 121:Lost my virginity before I was 18? yes
  • 122:Had oral sex? yes
  • 123:Dyed my hair? yes since i was 11
  • 124:Voted in a presidential election? no
  • 125:Rode in an ambulance? no
  • 126:Had a surgery? no
  • 127:Met someone famous? yes many people
  • 128:Stalked someone on a social network?yes hahaha
  • 129:Peed outside? yes
  • 130:Been fishing? no
  • 131:Helped with charity? yes
  • 132:Been rejected by a crush? not for a long time
  • 133:Broken a mirror? nope
  • 134:What do I want for birthday? i’d quite like the horrible histories box set and some new vans and maybe a nice necklace
  • 135:How many kids do I want and what will be their names? absolutely zero
  • 136:Was I named after anyone? not after someone but after the beatles song
  • 137:Do I like my handwriting?  god no
  • 138:What was my favourite toy as a child? i had a sick obsession with teletubbies til i was about 5 and then i moved onto Smart and Art Attack
  • 139:Favourite Tv Show? i’m really torn, 8 out of 10 cats or friends i’d say but horrible histories is good too
  • 140:Where do I want to live when older? i don’t wanna move far, i want to stay in newcastle
  • 141:Play any musical instrument? no
  • 142:One of my scars, how did I get it? i have a scar on my left arm from when i put my arm into the oven to reach a pie and i was too excited about the pie to put oven gloves on
  • 143:Favourite pizza toping? bbq sauce, feta cheese and sweet corn with a bbq stuffed crust and garlic butter
  • 144:Am I afraid of the dark? no
  • 145:Am I afraid of heights? nope
  • 146:Have I ever got caught sneaking out or doing anything bad? nope
  • 147:Have I ever tried my hardest and then gotten disappointed in the end? at most things i admit
  • 148:What I’m really bad at  maths!
  • 149:What my greatest achievements are i don’t have any
  • 150:The meanest thing somebody has ever said to me  we’re all outta earl grey you’ll have to have pg tips
  • 151:What I’d do if I won in a lottery  buy a nice house for me and kieran, a silver new style land rover defender and anything my family needed
  • 152:What do I like about myself  pretty much everything now, i’m past that point in my life when i hate everything about myself, i’ve learned to accept who/what i am and carry on
  • 153:My closest Tumblr friend no i don’t like any of you
  • 154:Something I fantasise about living with kieran next year ah

i have 22 hours to complete and hand in my graphics coursework, i am not gonna sleep tonight

i hope you're doing alright!! have a good day and keep going :)

thank you kind anon x

things are better, things are worse, i’m at the point where i just get on with it x


holy mother of god this is my favourite gif.

(Source: 1975blog, via boredbbrat)

Timestamp: 1398617976